Distance of Mortality

The cold bleak wind stabs at my skin

As memories tug at my soul

And with my heart now full of sin,

My mind of only death is full

The distance to eternity

Is bridged in a few small seconds

But so sweet is mortality

Our lives so full of decadence

Yet Death comes not for life but love

Whose debt was overdue so long

With last breath sent to skies above

For now is dead love’s only song

Now silence is the worst of all

When between two hearts but exist

Nothing more than a friendship’s fall

As Love’s last song is scarcely missed

Time to Tell

I'm Voting for McCain Palin. just thought I should say. whats a blog without a political endorsement eh? not that my endorsement means much, especially as a voter in a minority ruled blue state... :/

its been a while... over a week in fact...

so i have decided to blog. right now. because im bored to death in this european history class. 

ah! 

i have been so good lately, this past weekend tina, brooke, kevin, tyler, jared and I all went to rancho cucamonga and oak glen. it was likea mini retreat, and it was wonderful. friday night was an awareness concert hosted by compassion grows, and jared played at it. he did well. wallets and wells and the new limb rocked too. so fun. then we demolished a car. also fun. and then we all had a sleep over at tina's house. tons of tea included. (and i mean tons.)

the next day we went up to oak glen and had a picnic. jared and i both got necklaces that have knives in them, freakin sweet. and kevin bought a ring, and brooke bought a bracelet. and i bought some apple cider as well. it was cool. yah. thats what i did this past weekend. ok i gotta go. but theres a small update. 

ps i really wish brandalynn had not had to work. it could have been so much more fun had she been there. :/

Tattoos and Twins

So Sean and Erinn went and got their tattoos last night. at sandman tattoo parlor on california and union in bako. it was interesting for sure. i like their tattoos, but i think now that i will not be getting one... i dont know. anyways, not about me, this is about their tattoos, first the reasoning behind it was sweet. they decided to get tattoos together, different tattoos, but at the same time, because they are twins, and they both just turned 21. so that was cool. and their tattoos are cool too. Seans are the attributes listed in micah 6:8 written out in the form of a cross. and Erinn's tattoo is three lines of anglo saxon runes which reads "Lord Protect Me." pretty cool.

ok picture time. 

I'm in Wasco

and the weather is beautiful! crisp and clear. rather nippy actually. but its fun. today has just been a chill day, although dev and i have not cooked or baked anything yet... :/ and i want to, but we are going into town soon, and we will be there for a while. Sean is getting a tattoo. so is erinn. not sure what i think about that yet, but one thing is for sure, i have just decided that i do not ever want to do that to myself. and yah... i love it up here! all the orchards and corn fields! its freaking beautiful. yah.... ok bye...

i hope everyone else is having a great Fall Holiday wherever you are! whether its San Diego, Burbank, LA, Vanguard, Apple Valley or even Idaho. hope its flippin sweet. 

Pictures for Brandalynn

Tears of an Angel

Tears of an angel

 

The Fallen Angel, in his great despair

After his fall, to God is he crying.

Poor Wretched Angel who once was so fair

Now his glory is on the ground lying.

 

This Angel Lost who now is weeping

For away from him, his wings were taken

Who through the garden of ashes is creeping

Knowing now just what’s been forsaken.

 

This sad Angel of Shadows was deceived

By the Angel of Lies, who rules the Night.

His place in heaven surely bereaved,

Traded for living death and chained blight.

 

And sobbing now, this Angel in Exile

Stretches his eyes up to the Forbidden

Wishing that he hadn’t chosen this trial

Pleading with God that his path wasn’t hidden

 

This Forgotten Angel who knows his fate,

How it was changed when he lost his sight;

Realizing for him it is too late,

And now, forever, he's forsaken the Light.

i wrote this a few years ago and just wanted to share it with you. :) i have more poetry which i will be sharing in the future. 

Yogurtland and future prospects.

so i would like to say that this year has not gone at all so far like i thought it would at all. im hanging out with freshmen, my classes are really easy, im working alot, yearbook is a joke, i hardly ever hang out with my solid base of friends, i am hanging out more and more with music people. and to be honest. i love it. i do wish i could hang out with the SFO team more often, but our schedules conflict..

anyways, some of the people whom i have grown closest too in the past month include, Brooke, Brandi, Aaron, Mia, Paul, Jared Slyter, Jared Sleeper, and jayna. its crazy. but i love them all. and they make me want to do music again. hmmm... 

and that leads me into the main topic, Yogurtland.

MAZING!!! im seriously addicted, no thanks to brooke jared and brandi. but its ok, its not a destructive habit... yet... :)

let me tell you my favorite mix. plan tart yogurt with peach tart yogurt. about 70/30 on the yogurt side, then some mochi and a ton of fresh raspberries. freakin amazing. and usually under three dollars unless i go crazy. lol. sooo good. 

um yah. ok so here is my schedule for the next two weeks. 

10/08/08 - I take Jared to the Airport. (hes going home for his birthday)

10/09/08 - leave for Wasco after Sean gets off of work.

10/10/08 - Wasco!

10/11/08 - Wasco!

10/12/08 - Leave Wasco, Pick up Jared later that night. 

10/13/08 - no idea...

10/14/08 - Jared's Birthday

10/15/08 - work im guessing? nothing big...

10/16/08 - nada planned.

10/17/08 - Compassion grows, krochet kids, kids with destiny awareness concert! then sleepover in the 951/909. lol

10/18/08 - Oakglenn picnic, apples, fall festivities, photo safari with the peeps. fun times!

and yah, thats all i have planned so far. you are all invited to the awareness concert! its gonna be sweet! and to oakglenn as well. the more the merrier. :)  ok well government is getting hairy, i should get off this soon.  later peeps. 

Saints and Sinners

I want so very much to share this quote with you. I do believe that it is my new favorite life quote. 

"The only difference between the Saint and the Sinner, is that every Saint had a past and every Sinner has a future." - Oscar Wilde

this is such a true statement. we all have sin in our lives, but that does not hold reign on what we are capable of or what we can accomplish, our pasts and our mistakes only have power over us as long as we let them. as soon as we cast off that burden of sin, into the encompassing arms of our Lord can we realize that our loads are truly light in his hands, and our horizons are suddenly broadened. 

2Sa 22:33 It is God who arms me with strengthand makes my way perfect.

God has given us the option of relying on him, and in such making our way righteous. Look at all the people in the Bible and throughout history who had big issues in their lives, and look at what God did with them. Samson and his hair, and his final triumph, Jonah and his Witnessing, David and his lechery and murder; where did he end up? as one of the greatest kings ever. the moral of the story kiddos is, dont worry about the past, for we indeed have a future.

Sean is going to Ireland with me!

im so flippin excited! i love Ireland, and I love Sean! so it works out. see the thing is, Caylin, Stephanie, and i decided to go to Northern Ireland for New Years this year, and we wanted sean to come, but he did not know if he could financially. so for his birthday, we (all of his friends and family) pitched in money, and on his birthday on wednesday, we gave him a chack for six hundred dollars. it was so fun. im excited.

so we leave december 28th. and we will get back the eleventh of january... which is the day before classes start. good thing we checked the calendar before we booked huh?

ok well lots of details to work out still, like the fact that our flight out might be booked so sean might be on a different flight... or the fact that he does not have a passport yet... but yah. fun times.